~walking by faith

"Without faith it is impossible to please Him,

for he who comes to God

must believe that He is,

 and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him."

(Hebrews 11:6)

     I am out of my comfort zone and walking. It used to be more cloak and no dagger. Me hiding among the trees and hoping no one noticed as I crept through the woods of life. Then all those notes scribbled here and there started to weave themselves into my life. And I feel Him building.

      First the call as a little girl, then those quiet years when I thought sin buried those gifts deep in death. But like all things dead, He calls them forth. And me, little old me, begins to hear those dead bones rattle. So He calls, and I'm gonna follow Him. Maybe it will just be down the road to this next step or maybe He will take me all the way to those hills I love and the gentle quiet folk who live and die there.

     And Ann's words, scrawled and tucked into my Bible, find me last night.

"The things in my life that require faith are all the things that terrify me.  Are we doing anything at all in our lives that require real faith in God."

And her son he adds,

"I can't make it happen, it's a risk and everyday I just keep watching and waiting."

And the past circles back as I read notes and verses jotted in the front of my Bible.

"Behold, I will do something new..."

(Isaiah 43:19)

and further down I read

"...for the gifts and calling of God are irrevocable."

(Romans 11:29)

And I feel Him rattle these dead bones of mine as I murmur with Ezekiel,

"Oh LORD God, Thou knowest."

(Ezekiel 37:3)   

  So today, I study college algebra and hope He makes the mush between my head remember what is really important. And that just maybe I can CLEP out of the real class. And I fill out form after form for scholarships so that just maybe we can keep working towards financial freedom as I follow Him. And in the next 6 months, LORD willing,  you will find my schedule packed and me chewing my nails in terror as I walk all the way He leads me.